When I first learned about EFT I was amazed by all the stories about people who have been suffering for years from phobias, anxiety and depression that were completely healed after a few rounds of EFT tapping. These stories are generally referred to as “One Minute Miracles”. You can read many of these stories in Gary Craig’s emofree.com website and they are truly impressive.

Me… I am definitely not a “One Minute Miracle”. This weekend I was wondering why that might be and how to get over the anger at myself and – let’s face it – the envy I feel when I read about people suffering from very similar issues as myself getting instant healing while my progress seems to be VERY slow.

I found this great free audio from my favorite EFT experts Carol Look and Rick Wilkes on this topic (Click here to listen to the audio). It really helped me become at peace with my own progress (or lackthereof) and gave me the motivation to continue.

As far as the Personal Peace Procedure I intended to follow (read my previous post), it has been very difficult to get started. I completed my list of past stressful events but I’m avoiding focusing on any one event like the plague. I yearn for some quiet, a few uninterrupted hours that I can dedicate to knocking things off this list but… Did I mention I have two children under the age of 4 and a husband and a house to look after?

I concede that lack of time has not been the only reason for my reluctance. Frankly, I just don’t want to go back to those yucky moments from my past. I’m tapping on my fear of being overwhelmed and freaked out as we speak.

Eventhough I’m not doing what I said I was going to do and what I know will help me heal, I deeply and completely love and accept myself.

Eventhough I’m afraid that if I focus on the hurtful events from my past I will become overwhelmed and my depression will get worse, I choose to feel calm and confident.

Eventhough I am pissed off that I have to go back and deal with all the crap from my past while other people get one minute miracles and get healed instantly, I choose to accept and honor all of my feelings.

Eyebrow: I am angry at myself for flaking out of the Personal Peace Procedure.

Side of Eye: I don’t have time to go back and deal with all the crap from my past.

Under Eye: Why do I have to even do that?

Nose: Why can’t I be one of those people who gets healed instantly?

Chin: I’m obviously too screwed up.

Collarbone: I’m much more screwed up than they are.

Under Arm: I will never be healed.

Head: I will be depressed, broke and miserable all my life.

Eyebrow: No. I won’t.

Side of Eye: If other people can get healed so can I.

Under Eye: We are all One anyway.

Nose: I’m strong enough to face my past.

Chin: I survived it all to begin with, didn’t I.

Collarbone:  I forgive myself for thinking I’m too weak to do this.

Under Arm: I am strong beyond belief.

Top of Head: I deserve the best of everything in life and I will do whatever it takes to make it happen.

Ok.. so I did experience a miracle just now. I no longer feel overwhelmed. I will make the time to tackle the Personal Peace Procedure this week.