Personal Peace (?) Procedure

Today is Thanksgiving day in the US. My extended family is getting together to celebrate and my kids, husband and I will not be there. I’m sad. I’m disappointed and.. well… I’m a little pissed off.

As someone who has been using EFT for quite sometime, I can’t help but feel that things should be different for me than they are today – they should be better. We shouldn’t have had to file for bankruptcy and move to another country away from our friends and family. I shouldn’t be this fat. I shouldn’t be this depressed. Today, a day when just about everyone I know is sitting down in front of a nice meal to express their gratitude and appreciation, I feel neither of those things. I feel cheated.

It’s apparent to me that what I’m doing is not working. I’m tapping and tapping but something is blocking my well being from manifesting. I’ve read that this is when you should reach out and ask for help from a skilled practitioner. Unfortunately, I don’t have the financial resources to be able to afford to do that. There are many practitioners that are willing to discount their fees but I can’t even afford their discounted rates.

Before you think that this is some sort of pity party let me move on to the real focus of this post. Faced with the ineffectiveness of my own treatments but not being able to afford the help of a professional, I think I am ready to do some deeper work.

One of the things that attracted me to EFT so many years ago was the ability to do tapping on a stressful emotion and have it dissipate without having to dwell on what brought on the feeling in the first place. And for a while that was enough. I experienced some great shifts and things were good for a while. I have, however, hit a rough patch that no amount of tapping seems to be shifting. I’m stuck.

After doing a lot of reading about what could be causing this stall (actually, this regression) in my road to abundance and healing, I have concluded that shallow EFT is not going to do it. I need to go deeper.

On one of the audios on the Tapping Insiders Club site, Loretta Sparks introduced me to the Personal Peace Procedure. The basic premise of this technique is for a person to make a list of all the stressful events in his/her life – as many as can be remembered – and then revisit those events and do tapping on the feelings that come up. Gary Craig explains the technique here: Personal Peace Procedure.

I’ve spent the last 3 days on a not so pleasant trip down memory lane looking at old pictures, reading old journals, doing anything that would jog my memory. So far I’ve come up with 64 events – from my earliest memories to the present day – that I still have some strong negative feelings about. These events run the gamut from silly but embarrassing moments all the way up to major, traumatic events.

This process feels anything but peaceful so far. For years I successfully avoided thinking about most of the events on my list. However, intuitively I know that those events are very much active in my energy system and that clearing them will be what finally breaks me free from this rut.

To prevent myself from becoming completely overwhelmed, I plan to tap on no more than 2 events from my list daily; starting with the earliest ones since those are the ones I have avoided thinking about the longest. My goal is to hopefully be done with my list by New Years eve and start 2010 with a clean energetic slate.

Wish me luck on my journey.